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A. Hogan

You’re no more than a distant memory now, but a very vivid one nonetheless. If only we had met under different circumstances, if only you were here in Manchester or me there in London. 

Do you know that you were the best thing that have happened to me in a long long while? The first guy I had properly let into my life in ages?

The Manchester I don’t know anymore.

In all honesty, it feels really strange walking down Oxford Road and even more so standing under the arch where I once threw my mortar board now that I’m no longer an undergrad at the Uni of Manc. It almost feel like I’ve overstayed my welcome in Manchester. I wonder how things are going to be like when classes start. Will I get used to being in a seminar room rather than a lecture hall and sitting with new people rather than Linisha, Shinyee, Audrey or Kammy? Will I get used to nights out without my Singaporean hommies followed by a huge meal at Pearl City? Will I get used to not having Jenny around? It definitely feels like I don’t belong to Manchester anymore. 

And having to deal with that conversation in my standard spot in Blue 2, that was weird as well.

:(

I’ve just helped a friend move out of her now ex-boyfriend’s place. I’ve been there for people going through break ups, but this is by far the most graphic and heart-wrenching demise of a relationship that I have had to witness. I’ve been told that when you love someone, you give them the power to hurt you but trust that they wouldn’t. But intentions and consequences don’t always coincide, do they? If this period has taught me anything, it’s that I’m better off married to my work than getting emotionally involved with anyone. 

Idwtha.

Just because what you’re doing isn’t “technically” wrong doesn’t make it anymore appropriate ethically or morally. People have feelings, so please, have a heart and be decent. Fuck technicalities, it’s one thing to dish them out as defences at work, and it’s another to do the exact same in your personal life. 

I wish I hadn’t shown you the darkest parts of me.

—I Would Take it All Back (#616: July 21, 2014)

(Source: write2014)

I don’t want to have to wait or anticipate anymore. This could potentially lead to something good, I don’t know. But I’m too afraid to let things get anymore complicated. Should we put things to rest, should we?

I don’t want to have to wait or anticipate anymore. This could potentially lead to something good, I don’t know. But I’m too afraid to let things get anymore complicated. Should we put things to rest, should we?

(Source: weheartit.com, via feellng)

Gamble taken.

I’m meant to feel incredibly accomplished and happy today, but that doesn’t appear to be the case. Either the initial excitement has dissipated, or I’ve made a wrong decision.

The law school library fantasy that never happened, haaaa. But let’s be real, John Ryland’s law section is where you get daggers thrown at you for making the slightest noise. I’ve had my eye candy fill at Blue 2 for one and a half years, and that was good enough. Back to Manc in 2 days!

The law school library fantasy that never happened, haaaa. But let’s be real, John Ryland’s law section is where you get daggers thrown at you for making the slightest noise. I’ve had my eye candy fill at Blue 2 for one and a half years, and that was good enough.

Back to Manc in 2 days!

(via sexual-passion)

I’m sorry I gave you everything I had without making sure you wanted it.

—Heavy (#418: April 21, 2014)

(Source: write2014, via barnroof)